I Can’t Hold Back

Sis, we are not the same.

After all these years I’m not even sure we’re the same breed of human!

You are in a bad place. I get it. You made mistakes. I get it, we all do, but you blame others as a defense mechanism. That’s just silly. Some of these people weren’t even born yet when the drama began between us.

Look, what happened in 1991 was your business. You and your husband’s business. So you had a baby with the side dude? I mean, it happens. But which one? No DNA test and you weren’t being careful. Who knows?

Still not my business.

He and I got married. In no way was that your business, but out of deference to your obvious obsession with anything that was mine, we let you know. Then it was your mission to split us up? To bad Mike hadn’t been weaker - you would have had him instead.

I didn’t wreck your marriage and your relationship with your best friend and then gloat about it. Could have. It just isn’t my thing. Never was.

I didn’t have someone set fire to your car AFTER they’d slashed the tires. Could have. I knew people. Still, not my style.

I moved to Hot Springs to take care of my mother who’d had a stroke. It had nothing to do with hiding my lifestyle from people who’d judge - they ALL live in Hot Springs!! You moved to Louisiana to hide your sins from the fam. I get it. Privacy. Y’all were freaks. But you had kids. What did you take from them to get YOUR way?

No we are not the same.

At one of my lowest points I reached out to make peace with you. You spit in my face.

At your most recent low point I reached out to you to offer you something to hopefully lift your spirits but you lied and said it was done out of spite!!! Like I would EVER do something like that to someone who just lost their mother!! It was a condolence card. Sent with love for your dear mother as a gesture I know she would have appreciated us doing for you. SHE was the reason it was done, but it was sent with nothing but love. Yet, you made it about old grievances and refused to see the beauty in the gift.

Typical.

I get you’re still sore about Bailey. Well I can’t help you there. You made your bed with her years before I was ever in the picture. You know full well I didn’t take her from you though. Bailey goes where she chooses and does what she wants. Remind you of anyone? Blame me if you want, but you know better.

I know you’re sore about Jake and the name change. Well, I guess if you hadn’t been such an ass in 95 when you were getting names changed you could have taken Jerry’s name and changed Jake’s to Voss. But no. No that had to be a lie too. Ma’am you lied to the Lonoke Court about why you wanted that child’s name changed. Then a month later you married the man you claimed was his natural father. Girl, you told so many people so many stories I think you lost track. It’s all straight now. Jerry went through legal channels and adopted Jake so his name is finally on his birth certificate and Jake has his father and sister’s last name (and mine), and so do Lauren and Eloiny. All done legally. All seen completely through. Oddly while I’m running two businesses, I still have time to help Jake get his legal and employment stuff done. Weird what love will cause you to prioritize.

Thanks for closing the door. Nobody will reach out to you again. I was kind to you after you’ve been nothing but bitterly evil to me and I’m not gloating about it, I’m just agog that you could still be such a horrible thing after all these years.

Have fun on your “cruise” in August. No, Bailey won’t be joining you. smh